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Chapter XXXIV

           Thecaseisveryplainbeforeme. InleavingEngland,Ishouldleavealovedbutemptyland—Mr.Rochesterisnotthere;andifhewere,whatis,whatcanthateverbetome?Mybusinessistolivewithouthimnow:nothingsoabsurd,soweakastodragonfromdaytoday,asifIwerewaitingsomeimpossiblechangeincircumstances,whichmightreunitemetohim.Ofcourse(asSt.Johnoncesaid)Imustseekanotherinterestinlifetoreplacetheonelost:isnottheoccupationhenowoffersmetrulythemostgloriousmancanadoptorGodassign? Isitnot,byitsnoblecaresandsublimeresults,theonebestcalculatedtofillthevoidleftbyuptornaffectionsanddemolishedhopes?IbelieveImustsay,Yes—andyetIshudder. Alas!IfIjoinSt.John,Iabandonhalfmyself:ifIgotoIndia,Igotoprematuredeath.AndhowwilltheintervalbetweenleavingEnglandforIndia,andIndiaforthegrave,befilled?Oh,Iknowwell!That,too,isverycleartomyvision. BystrainingtosatisfySt.Johntillmysinewsache,Ishallsatisfyhim—tothefinestcentralpointandfarthestoutwardcircleofhisexpectations.IfIdogowithhim—ifIdomakethesacrificeheurges,Iwillmakeitabsolutely:Iwillthrowallonthealtar—heart,vitals,theentirevictim. Hewillneverloveme;butheshallapproveme; Iwillshowhimenergieshehasnotyetseen,resourceshehasneversuspected. Yes,Icanworkashardashecan,andwithaslittlegrudging. 

           "Consent,then,tohisdemandispossible:butforoneitem—onedreadfulitem. 

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