Идиот

           “Fancyhimnursingme!Why,heneedsanursehimself!Thegeneral,there,willbehisnursenow,you’llsee.Here,prince,lookhere!Yourbrideisacceptingmoney.Whatadisreputablewomanshemustbe!Andyouwishedtomarryher!Whatareyoucryingabout?Isitabitterdose?Nevermind,youshalllaughyet.Trusttotime.”(InspiteofthesewordsthereweretwolargetearsrollingdownNastasia’sowncheeks.)“It’sfarbettertothinktwiceofitnowthanafterwards.Oh!youmustn’tcrylikethat!There’sKatiacrying,too.Whatisit,Katia,dear?IshallleaveyouandPashaalotofthings,I’velaidthemoutforyoualready;butgood-bye,now.Imadeanhonestgirllikeyouservealowwomanlikemyself.It’sbetterso,prince,itisindeed.You’dbegintodespisemeafterwards—weshouldneverbehappy.Oh!youneedn’tswear,prince,Ishan’tbelieveyou,youknow.Howfoolishitwouldbe,too!No,no;we’dbettersaygood-byeandpartfriends.Iamabitofadreamermyself,andIusedtodreamofyouonce.VeryoftenduringthosefiveyearsdownathisestateIusedtodreamandthink,andIalwaysimaginedjustsuchagood,honest,foolishfellowasyou,onewhoshouldcomeandsaytome:‘Youareaninnocentwoman,NastasiaPhilipovna,andIadoreyou.’Idreamtofyouoften.IusedtothinksomuchdowntherethatInearlywentmad;andthenthisfellowherewouldcomedown.Hewouldstayacoupleofmonthsoutofthetwelve,anddisgraceandinsultanddepraveme,andthengo;sothatIlongedtodrownmyselfinthepondathousandtimesover;butIdidnotdaredoit.