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Chapter 14
Youmaylookincredulous,ifyouplease!Ineverwouldhavebanishedhimfromhersocietyaslongasshedesiredhis.Themomentherregardceased,Iwouldhavetornhisheartout,anddrunkhisblood!But,tillthen—ifyoudon’tbelieveme,youdon’tknowme—tillthen,IwouldhavediedbyinchesbeforeItouchedasinglehairofhishead!"
"Andyet,"Iinterrupted,"youhavenoscruplesincompletelyruiningallhopesofherperfectrestoration,bythrustingyourselfintoherremembrancenow,whenshehasnearlyforgottenyou,andinvolvingherinanewtumultofdiscordanddistress."
"Yousupposeshehasmerelyforgottenme?"hesaid."Oh,Nelly!youknowshehasnot!YouknowaswellasIdo,thatforeverythoughtshespendsonLinton,shespendsathousandonme!Atamostmiserableperiodofmylife,Ihadanotionofthekind:ithauntedmeonmyreturntotheneighborhoodlastsummer;butonlyherownassurancecouldmakemeadmitthehorribleideaagain.Andthen,Lintonwouldbenothing,norHindley,norallthedreamsthateverIdreamt.Twowordswouldcomprehendmyfuture—deathandhell:existence,afterlosingher,wouldbehell.YetIwasafooltofancyforamomentthatshevaluedEdgarLinton’sattachmentmorethanmine.Ifhelovedwithallthepowersofhispunybeing,hecouldn’tloveasmuchineightyyearsasIcouldinaday.