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Chapter 6
Allthegreatwords,itseemedtoConnie,werecancelledforhergeneration:love,joy,happiness,home,mother,father,husband,allthesegreat,dynamicwordswerehalfdeadnow,anddyingfromdaytoday.Homewasaplaceyoulivedin,lovewasathingyoudidn’tfoolyourselfabout,joywasawordyouappliedtoagoodCharleston,happinesswasatermofhypocrisyusedtobluffotherpeople,afatherwasanindividualwhoenjoyedhisownexistence,ahusbandwasamanyoulivedwithandkeptgoinginspirits.Asforsex,thelastofthegreatwords,itwasjustacocktailtermforanexcitementthatbuckedyouupforawhile,thenleftyoumoreraggythanever.Frayed!Itwasasiftheverymaterialyouweremadeofwascheapstuff,andwasfrayingouttonothing.
Allthatreallyremainedwasastubbornstoicism:andinthattherewasacertainpleasure.Intheveryexperienceofthenothingnessoflife,phaseafterphase,étapeafterétape,therewasacertaingrislysatisfaction.Sothat’sthat!Alwaysthiswasthelastutterance:home,love,marriage,Michaelis:Sothat’sthat!Andwhenonedied,thelastwordstolifewouldbe:Sothat’sthat!
Money?Perhapsonecouldn’tsaythesamethere.Moneyonealwayswanted.Money,Success,thebitch-goddess,asTommyDukespersistedincallingit,afterHenryJames,thatwasapermanentnecessity.Youcouldn’tspendyourlastsou,andsayfinally:Sothat’sthat!No,ifyoulivedevenanothertenminutes,youwantedafewmoresousforsomethingorother.Justtokeepthebusinessmechanicallygoing,youneededmoney.Youhadtohaveit.
