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Chapter 20
andIaccordinglyputthemintoabasket,withagreatquantityofstones,andlayingthemup,determinedtothrowthemintotheseathatverynight;andinthemeantimeIsatuponthebeach,employedincleaningandarrangingmychemicalapparatus.
Nothingcouldbemorecompletethanthealterationthathadtakenplaceinmyfeelingssincethenightoftheappearanceofthedaemon.Ihadbeforeregardedmypromisewithagloomydespairasathingthat,withwhateverconsequences,mustbefulfilled;butInowfeltasifafilmhadbeentakenfrombeforemyeyesandthatIforthefirsttimesawclearly.Theideaofrenewingmylaboursdidnotforoneinstantoccurtome;thethreatIhadheardweighedonmythoughts,butIdidnotreflectthatavoluntaryactofminecouldavertit.IhadresolvedinmyownmindthattocreateanotherlikethefiendIhadfirstmadewouldbeanactofthebasestandmostatrociousselfishness,andIbanishedfrommymindeverythoughtthatcouldleadtoadifferentconclusion.
Betweentwoandthreeinthemorningthemoonrose;andIthen,puttingmybasketaboardalittleskiff,sailedoutaboutfourmilesfromtheshore.Thescenewasperfectlysolitary;afewboatswerereturningtowardsland,butIsailedawayfromthem.IfeltasifIwasaboutthecommissionofadreadfulcrimeandavoidedwithshudderinganxietyanyencounterwithmyfellowcreatures.Atonetimethemoon,whichhadbeforebeenclear,wassuddenlyoverspreadbyathickcloud,andItookadvantageofthemomentofdarknessandcastmybasketintothesea;Ilistenedtothegurglingsoundasitsankandthensailedawayfromthespot.Theskybecameclouded,buttheairwaspure,althoughchilledbythenortheastbreezethatwasthenrising.ButitrefreshedmeandfilledmewithsuchagreeablesensationsthatIresolvedtoprolongmystayonthewater,andfixingtherudderinadirectposition,stretchedmyselfatthebottomoftheboat.