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Chapter 15
AtfirstIhadneglectedthem,butnowthatIwasabletodecipherthecharactersinwhichtheywerewritten,Ibegantostudythemwithdiligence.Itwasyourjournalofthefourmonthsthatprecededmycreation.Youminutelydescribedinthesepaperseverystepyoutookintheprogressofyourwork;thishistorywasmingledwithaccountsofdomesticoccurrences.Youdoubtlessrecollectthesepapers.Heretheyare.Everythingisrelatedinthemwhichbearsreferencetomyaccursedorigin;thewholedetailofthatseriesofdisgustingcircumstanceswhichproduceditissetinview;theminutestdescriptionofmyodiousandloathsomepersonisgiven,inlanguagewhichpaintedyourownhorrorsandrenderedmineindelible.IsickenedasIread.‘HatefuldaywhenIreceivedlife!’Iexclaimedinagony.‘Accursedcreator!WhydidyouformamonstersohideousthatevenYOUturnedfrommeindisgust?God,inpity,mademanbeautifulandalluring,afterhisownimage;butmyformisafilthytypeofyours,morehorridevenfromtheveryresemblance.Satanhadhiscompanions,fellowdevils,toadmireandencouragehim,butIamsolitaryandabhorred.’
"Thesewerethereflectionsofmyhoursofdespondencyandsolitude;butwhenIcontemplatedthevirtuesofthecottagers,theiramiableandbenevolentdispositions,Ipersuadedmyselfthatwhentheyshouldbecomeacquaintedwithmyadmirationoftheirvirtuestheywouldcompassionatemeandoverlookmypersonaldeformity.Couldtheyturnfromtheirdoorone,howevermonstrous,whosolicitedtheircompassionandfriendship?Iresolved,atleast,nottodespair,butineverywaytofitmyselfforaninterviewwiththemwhichwoulddecidemyfate.Ipostponedthisattemptforsomemonthslonger,fortheimportanceattachedtoitssuccessinspiredmewithadreadlestIshouldfail.Besides,Ifoundthatmyunderstandingimprovedsomuchwitheveryday’sexperiencethatIwasunwillingtocommencethisundertakinguntilafewmoremonthsshouldhaveaddedtomysagacity.