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Chapter 15
Thegentleanddomesticmannersitdescribed,combinedwithloftysentimentsandfeelings,whichhadfortheirobjectsomethingoutofself,accordedwellwithmyexperienceamongmyprotectorsandwiththewantswhichwereforeveraliveinmyownbosom.ButIthoughtWerterhimselfamoredivinebeingthanIhadeverbeheldorimagined;hischaractercontainednopretension,butitsankdeep.Thedisquisitionsupondeathandsuicidewerecalculatedtofillmewithwonder.Ididnotpretendtoenterintothemeritsofthecase,yetIinclinedtowardstheopinionsofthehero,whoseextinctionIwept,withoutpreciselyunderstandingit.
"AsIread,however,Iappliedmuchpersonallytomyownfeelingsandcondition.IfoundmyselfsimilaryetatthesametimestrangelyunliketothebeingsconcerningwhomIreadandtowhoseconversationIwasalistener.Isympathizedwithandpartlyunderstoodthem,butIwasunformedinmind;Iwasdependentonnoneandrelatedtonone."Thepathofmydeparturewasfree,"andtherewasnonetolamentmyannihilation.Mypersonwashideousandmystaturegigantic.Whatdidthismean?WhowasI?WhatwasI?WhencedidIcome?Whatwasmydestination?Thesequestionscontinuallyrecurred,butIwasunabletosolvethem.
"ThevolumeofPlutarch’sLiveswhichIpossessedcontainedthehistoriesofthefirstfoundersoftheancientrepublics.ThisbookhadafardifferenteffectuponmefromtheSorrowsofWerter.IlearnedfromWerter’simaginationsdespondencyandgloom,butPlutarchtaughtmehighthoughts;heelevatedmeabovethewretchedsphereofmyownreflections,toadmireandlovetheheroesofpastages.ManythingsIreadsurpassedmyunderstandingandexperience.Ihadaveryconfusedknowledgeofkingdoms,wideextentsofcountry,mightyrivers,andboundlessseas.ButIwasperfectlyunacquaintedwithtownsandlargeassemblagesofmen.