Портрет Дориана Грея
Chapter 19
AlanCampbellhadshothimselfonenightinhislaboratory,buthadnotrevealedthesecretthathehadbeenforcedtoknow. Theexcitement,suchasitwas,overBasilHallward’sdisappearancewouldsoonpassaway. Itwasalreadywaning. Hewasperfectlysafethere. Nor,indeed,wasitthedeathofBasilHallwardthatweighedmostuponhismind. Itwasthelivingdeathofhisownsoulthattroubledhim. Basilhadpaintedtheportraitthathadmarredhislife. Hecouldnotforgivehimthat. Itwastheportraitthathaddoneeverything. Basilhadsaidthingstohimthatwereunbearable,andthathehadyetbornewithpatience. Themurderhadbeensimplythemadnessofamoment. AsforAlanCampbell,hissuicidehadbeenhisownact. Hehadchosentodoit. Itwasnothingtohim.
Anewlife! Thatwaswhathewanted. Thatwaswhathewaswaitingfor. Surelyhehadbegunitalready. Hehadsparedoneinnocentthing,atanyrate. Hewouldneveragaintemptinnocence. Hewouldbegood.
AshethoughtofHettyMerton,hebegantowonderiftheportraitinthelockedroomhadchanged. Surelyitwasnotstillsohorribleasithadbeen? Perhapsifhislifebecamepure,hewouldbeabletoexpeleverysignofevilpassionfromtheface. Perhapsthesignsofevilhadalreadygoneaway. Hewouldgoandlook.
Hetookthelampfromthetableandcreptupstairs. Asheunbarredthedoorasmileofjoyflittedacrosshisstrangelyyoung-lookingfaceandlingeredforamomentabouthislips. Yes,hewouldbegood,andthehideousthingthathehadhiddenawaywouldnolongerbeaterrortohim. Hefeltasiftheloadhadbeenliftedfromhimalready.