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Chapter 8
ItwasapitytobeobligedtoreinvestigatethecertitudeofthemomentitselfandrepeathowithadcometomeasarevelationthattheinconceivablecommunionIthensurprisedwasamatter,foreitherparty,ofhabit.ItwasapitythatIshouldhavehadtoquaveroutagainthereasonsformynothaving,inmydelusion,somuchasquestionedthatthelittlegirlsawourvisitantevenasIactuallysawMrs.Groseherself,andthatshewanted,byjustsomuchasshedidthussee,tomakemesupposeshedidn’t,andatthesametime,withoutshowinganything,arriveataguessastowhetherImyselfdid!ItwasapitythatIneededoncemoretodescribetheportentouslittleactivitybywhichshesoughttodivertmyattention—theperceptibleincreaseofmovement,thegreaterintensityofplay,thesinging,thegabblingofnonsense,andtheinvitationtoromp.
YetifIhadnotindulged,toprovetherewasnothinginit,inthisreview,Ishouldhavemissedthetwoorthreedimelementsofcomfortthatstillremainedtome.IshouldnotforinstancehavebeenabletoasseveratetomyfriendthatIwascertain—whichwassomuchtothegood—thatIatleasthadnotbetrayedmyself.Ishouldnothavebeenprompted,bystressofneed,bydesperationofmind—Iscarceknowwhattocallit—toinvokesuchfurtheraidtointelligenceasmightspringfrompushingmycolleaguefairlytothewall.
