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Return to England
Itwassomemonths,however,beforeIresolveduponthis; andtherefore,asIhadrewardedtheoldcaptainfully,andtohissatisfaction,whohadbeenmyformerbenefactor,soIbegantothinkofmypoorwidow,whosehusbandhadbeenmyfirstbenefactor,andshe,whileitwasinherpower,myfaithfulstewardandinstructor. SothefirstthingIdid,IgotamerchantinLisbontowritehiscorrespondentinLondon,notonlytopayabill,buttogofindherout,andcarryherinmoneyahundredpoundsfromme,andtotalkwithher,andcomfortherinherpoverty,bytellinghersheshould,ifIlived,haveafurthersupply. AtthesametimeIsentmytwosistersinthecountryeachofthemanhundredpounds,theybeing,thoughnotinwant,yetnotinverygoodcircumstances; onehavingbeenmarried,andleftawidow; andtheotherhavingahusbandnotsokindtoherasheshouldbe.
Butamongallmyrelationsoracquaintances,IcouldnotyetpitchupononetowhomIdurstcommitthegrossofmystock,thatImightgoawaytotheBrazils,andleavethingssafebehindme; andthisgreatlyperplexedme.
IhadonceamindtohavegonetotheBrazilsandhavesettledmyselfthere,forIwas,asitwere,naturalizedtotheplace. ButIhadsomelittlescrupleinmymindaboutreligion,whichinsensiblydrewmeback,ofwhichIshallsaymorepresently. However,itwasnotreligionthatkeptmefromgoingthereforthepresent; andasIhadmadenoscrupleofbeingopenlyofthereligionofthecountryallthewhileIwasamongthem,soneitherdidIyet; onlythat,nowandthen,havingthelatethoughtmoreofthanformerly,whenIbegantothinkoflivinganddyingamongthem,Ibegantoregretmyhavingprofessedmyselfapapist,andthoughtitmightnotbethebestreligiontodiewith.