Грозовой перевал
Chapter 33
Theentireworldisadreadfulcollectionofmemorandathatshedidexist,andthatIhavelosther!Well,Hareton’saspectwastheghostofmyimmortallove;ofmywildendeavourstoholdmyright;mydegradation,mypride,myhappiness,andmyanguish:
"Butitisfrenzytorepeatthesethoughtstoyou:onlyitwillletyouknowwhy,withareluctancetobealwaysalone,hissocietyisnobenefit;ratheranaggravationoftheconstanttormentIsuffer;anditpartlycontributestorendermeregardlesshowheandhiscousingoontogether.Icangivethemnoattention,anymore."
"Butwhatdoyoumeanbyachange,Mr.Heathcliff?"Isaid,alarmedathismanner:thoughhewasneitherindangeroflosinghissenses,nordying,accordingtomyjudgment:hewasquitestrongandhealthy:and,astohisreason,fromchildhoodhehadadelightindwellingondarkthings,andentertainingoddfancies.Hemighthavehadamonomaniaonthesubjectofhisdepartedidol;butoneveryotherpointhiswitswereassoundasmine.
"Ishallnotknowthattillitcomes,"hesaid,"I’monlyhalfconsciousofitnow."
"Youhavenofeelingsofillness,haveyou?"Iasked.
"No,Nelly,Ihavenot,"heanswered.
"Thenyouarenotafraidofdeath?"Ipursued.
"Afraid?No!"hereplied."Ihaveneitherafear,norapresentiment,norahopeofdeath.WhyshouldI?Withmyhardconstitutionandtemperatemodeofliving,andunperilousoccupations,Ioughtto,andprobablyshall,remainabovegroundtillthereisscarcelyablackhaironmyhead
