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Chapter 18
Butoh,thewonderandthegloryofthosetendaysspentbymeelsewhere!Thejourneysthroughthelongchainofexistences!Thelongdarks,thegrowingsofnebulouslights,andtheflutteringapparitionalselvesthatdawnedthroughthegrowinglight!
MuchhaveIponderedupontherelationoftheseotherselvestome,andoftherelationofthetotalexperiencetothemoderndoctrineofevolution.Icantrulysaythatmyexperienceisincompleteaccordwithourconclusionsofevolution.
I,likeanyman,amagrowth.IdidnotbeginwhenIwasbornnorwhenIwasconceived.Ihavebeengrowing,developing,throughincalculablemyriadsofmillenniums.Alltheseexperiencesofalltheselives,andofcountlessotherlives,havegonetothemakingofthesoul-stufforthespirit-stuffthatisI.Don’tyousee?Theyarethestuffofme.Matterdoesnotremember,forspiritismemory.Iamthisspiritcompoundedofthememoriesofmyendlessincarnations.
Whencecameinme,DarrellStanding,theredpulseofwraththathaswreckedmylifeandputmeinthecondemnedcells?Surelyitdidnotcomeintobeing,wasnotcreated,whenthebabethatwastobeDarrellStandingwasconceived.Thatoldredwrathisfarolderthanmymother,farolderthantheoldestandfirstmotherofmen.Mymother,atmyinception,didnotcreatethatpassionatelackoffearthatismine.
