Голод
Part I
FromthedayinMaywhenmyill-luckbeganIcouldsoclearlynoticemygraduallyincreasingdebility;Ihadbecome,asitwere,toolanguidtocontrolorleadmyselfwhitherIwouldgo.Aswarmoftinynoxiousanimalshadboredawayintomyinnermanandhollowedmeout.
SupposingGodAlmightysimplyintendedtoannihilateme?Igotupandpacedbackwardsandforwardsbeforetheseat.
Mywholebeingwasatthismomentinthehighestdegreeoftorture,Ihadpainsinmyarms,andcouldhardlybeartoholdthemintheusualway.Iexperiencedalsogreatdiscomfortfrommylastfullmeal;Iwasoversated,andwalkedbackwardsandforwardswithoutlookingup.Thepeoplewhocameandwentaroundmeglidedpastmelikefaintgleams.Atlastmyseatwastakenupbytwomen,wholitcigarsandbegantotalkloudlytogether.Igotangryandwasonthepointofaddressingthem,butturnedonmyheelandwentrighttotheotherendofthePark,andfoundanotherseat.Isatdown.
ThethoughtofGodbegantooccupyme.ItseemedtomeinthehighestdegreeindefensibleofHimtointerfereeverytimeIsoughtforaplace,andtoupsetthewholething,whileallthetimeIwasbutimploringenoughforadailymeal.
