The Stillness
MyfirstactbeforeIwentintothepantrywastofastenthedoorbetweenthekitchenandthescullery. Butthepantrywasempty; everyscrapoffoodhadgone. Apparently,theMartianhadtakenitallonthepreviousday. AtthatdiscoveryIdespairedforthefirsttime. Itooknofood,ornodrinkeither,ontheeleventhorthetwelfthday.
Atfirstmymouthandthroatwereparched,andmystrengthebbedsensibly. Isataboutinthedarknessofthescullery,inastateofdespondentwretchedness. Mymindranoneating.IthoughtIhadbecomedeaf,forthenoisesofmovementIhadbeenaccustomedtohearfromthepithadceasedabsolutely. Ididnotfeelstrongenoughtocrawlnoiselesslytothepeephole,orIwouldhavegonethere.
Onthetwelfthdaymythroatwassopainfulthat,takingthechanceofalarmingtheMartians,Iattackedthecreakingrain-waterpumpthatstoodbythesink,andgotacoupleofglassfulsofblackenedandtaintedrainwater. Iwasgreatlyrefreshedbythis,andemboldenedbythefactthatnoenquiringtentaclefollowedthenoiseofmypumping.
Duringthesedays,inarambling,inconclusiveway,Ithoughtmuchofthecurateandofthemannerofhisdeath.
OnthethirteenthdayIdranksomemorewater,anddozedandthoughtdisjointedlyofeatingandofvagueimpossibleplansofescape. WheneverIdozedIdreamtofhorriblephantasms,ofthedeathofthecurate,orofsumptuousdinners; but,asleeporawake,Ifeltakeenpainthaturgedmetodrinkagainandagain. Thelightthatcameintothescullerywasnolongergrey,butred. Tomydisorderedimaginationitseemedthecolourofblood.