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           Once,asIsatsidewaystoher,Iwatchedher,andsawthathergazewasfollowingsomeoneelse.ItwasSadler,whowasdancingatthetimewiththesecondMissThurston.Tojudgebyherexpression,itiswellforhimthatheisnotinhergripasIam.Hedoesnotknowtheescapehehashad.IthinkIhearhisstepinthestreetnow,andIwillgodownandlethimin.Ifhewill——May4.WhydidIbreakoffinthiswaylastnight?Ineverwentdownstairs,afterall—atleast,Ihavenorecollectionofdoingso.But,ontheotherhand,Icannotremembergoingtobed.Oneofmyhandsisgreatlyswollenthismorning,andyetIhavenoremembranceofinjuringityesterday.Otherwise,Iamfeelingallthebetterforlastnight’sfestivity.ButIcannotunderstandhowitisthatIdidnotmeetCharlesSadlerwhenIsofullyintendedtodoso.Isitpossible——MyGod,itisonlytooprobable!Hasshebeenleadingmesomedevil’sdanceagain?IwillgodowntoSadlerandaskhim.Mid-day.Thethinghascometoacrisis.Mylifeisnotworthliving.But,ifIamtodie,thensheshallcomealso.Iwillnotleaveherbehind,todrivesomeothermanmadasshehasme.No,Ihavecometothelimitofmyendurance.Shehasmademeasdesperateanddangerousamanaswalkstheearth.GodknowsIhaveneverhadthehearttohurtafly,andyet,ifIhadmyhandsnowuponthatwoman,sheshouldneverleavethisroomalive.Ishallseeherthisveryday,andsheshalllearnwhatshehastoexpectfromme.IwenttoSadlerandfoundhim,tomysurprise,inbed.