Кінець рабства
XIII
IwasnotfrankwithMassy—no,notaltogether.Iknewhetookmeforawealthysailorfool,andIlethim.Iwantedtokeepupmyimportance—becausetherewaspoorIvyawaythere—mydaughter.WhatdidIwanttotradeonhismiseryfor?Ididtradeonit—forher.Andnow,whatmercycouldIexpectfromhim?Hewouldtradeonmineifheknewit.Hewouldhunttheoldfraudout,andsticktothemoneyforayear.Ivy’smoney.AndIhaven’tkeptapennyformyself.HowamIgoingtoliveforayear.Ayear!Inayeartherewillbenosunintheskyforherfather.”
Hisdeepvoicecameout,awfullyveiled,asthoughhehadbeenoverwhelmedbytheearthofalandslide,andtalkingtoyouofthethoughtsthathauntthedeadintheirgraves.AcoldshudderrandownMr.VanWyk’sback.
“Andhowlongisitsinceyouhave...?”hebegan.
“ItwasalongtimebeforeIcouldbringmyselftobelieveinthis—thisvisitation.”CaptainWhalleyspokewithgloomypatiencefromunderhishand.
Hehadnotthoughthehaddeservedit.Hehadbegunbydeceivinghimselffromdaytoday,fromweektoweek.HehadtheSerangathandthere—anoldservant.Itcameongradually,andwhenhecouldnolongerdeceivehimself...
Hisvoicediedoutalmost.
“RatherthangiveherupIsetmyselftodeceiveyouall.”
“It’sincredible,”whisperedMr.VanWyk.CaptainWhalley’sappallingmurmurflowedon.
“NoteventhesignofGod’sangercouldmakemeforgether.HowcouldIforsakemychild,feelingmyvigorallthetime—thebloodwarmwithinme?Warmasyours.