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Chapter V
Iwonderedifitwerepossiblethatshecouldbeunawareofherloveliness.Beautifulpeoplearethrillingtome,andMrs.MacNairnhasalwaysseemedmoresothananyoneelse.Thisiswhathersononcesaidofher:
“Sheisnotmerelybeautiful;sheisBeauty—Beauty’sveryspiritmovingaboutamongusmortals;pureBeauty.”
Shedrewmetoachairunderhertree,andwesatdowntogether.IfeltasifsheweregladthatIhadcome.ThewatchinglookIhadseeninherson’seyeswasinhersalso.Theywatchedmeaswetalked,andIfoundmyselftellingheraboutmyhomeasIhadfoundmyselftellinghim.Hehadevidentlytalkedtoheraboutithimself.IhadnevermetanyonewhothoughtofMuircarrieasIdid,butitseemedasiftheywhowerestrangersweredrawnbyitswild,beautifullonelinessasIwas.
Iwashappy.InmysecretheartIbegantoaskmyselfifitcouldbetruethattheymademefeelalittleasifIsomehowbelongedtosomeone.Ihadalwaysseemedsodetachedfromeveryone.Ihadnotbeenmiserableaboutit,andIhadnotcomplainedtomyself;Ionlyacceptedthedetachmentaspartofmykindoflife.
Mr.MacNairncameintothegardenlaterandseveralotherpeoplecameintotea.Itwasapparentlyasortofdailycustom—thatpeoplewhoevidentlyadoredMrs.MacNairndroppedintoseeandtalktohereveryafternoon.Shetalkedwonderfully,andherfriends’joyinherwaswonderful,too.Itevidentlymadepeoplehappytobenearher.Allshesaidanddidwaslikeherlightstepandthemovementsofherdelicate,finehead—graciousandsoftandarrestinglylovely.