Доводи розуму
Chapter 23
MrsMusgrovehadlittlearrangementsofherownatherowntable;totheirprotectionshemusttrust,andsinkingintothechairwhichhehadoccupied,succeedingtotheveryspotwherehehadleanedandwritten,hereyesdevouredthefollowingwords:
“Icanlistennolongerinsilence.Imustspeaktoyoubysuchmeansasarewithinmyreach.Youpiercemysoul.Iamhalfagony,halfhope.TellmenotthatIamtoolate,thatsuchpreciousfeelingsaregoneforever.Ioffermyselftoyouagainwithaheartevenmoreyourownthanwhenyoualmostbrokeit,eightyearsandahalfago.Darenotsaythatmanforgetssoonerthanwoman,thathislovehasanearlierdeath.Ihavelovednonebutyou.UnjustImayhavebeen,weakandresentfulIhavebeen,butneverinconstant.YoualonehavebroughtmetoBath.Foryoualone,Ithinkandplan.Haveyounotseenthis?Canyoufailtohaveunderstoodmywishes?Ihadnotwaitedeventhesetendays,couldIhavereadyourfeelings,asIthinkyoumusthavepenetratedmine.Icanhardlywrite.Iameveryinstanthearingsomethingwhichoverpowersme.Yousinkyourvoice,butIcandistinguishthetonesofthatvoicewhentheywouldbelostonothers.Toogood,tooexcellentcreature!Youdousjustice,indeed.Youdobelievethatthereistrueattachmentandconstancyamongmen.Believeittobemostfervent,mostundeviating,inF.W.
“Imustgo,uncertainofmyfate;butIshallreturnhither,orfollowyourparty,assoonaspossible.
