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Chapter 2
Helookedverydubious;butImadeagrabathisarm,andheunderstoodatonceImeanthimtosteerwhetherorno.Totellyouthetruth,Iwasmorbidlyanxioustochangemyshoesandsocks.‘Heisdead,’murmuredthefellow,immenselyimpressed.‘Nodoubtaboutit,’saidI,tugginglikemadattheshoe-laces.‘Andbytheway,IsupposeMr.Kurtzisdeadaswellbythistime.’
"Forthemomentthatwasthedominantthought.Therewasasenseofextremedisappointment,asthoughIhadfoundoutIhadbeenstrivingaftersomethingaltogetherwithoutasubstance.Icouldn’thavebeenmoredisgustedifIhadtravelledallthiswayforthesolepurposeoftalkingwithMr.Kurtz.Talkingwith...Iflungoneshoeoverboard,andbecameawarethatthatwasexactlywhatIhadbeenlookingforwardto—atalkwithKurtz.ImadethestrangediscoverythatIhadneverimaginedhimasdoing,youknow,butasdiscoursing.Ididn’tsaytomyself,‘NowIwillneverseehim,’or‘NowIwillnevershakehimbythehand,’but,‘NowIwillneverhearhim.’Themanpresentedhimselfasavoice.NotofcoursethatIdidnotconnecthimwithsomesortofaction.Hadn’tIbeentoldinallthetonesofjealousyandadmirationthathehadcollected,bartered,swindled,orstolenmoreivorythanalltheotheragentstogether?Thatwasnotthepoint.
