I Tried Not to Be
Itwaspretty,comfortableMrs.Carmichaelwhoexplainedeverything.Shewassentforatonce,andcameacrossthesquaretotakeSaraintoherwarmarmsandmakecleartoherallthathadhappened.TheexcitementofthetotallyunexpecteddiscoveryhadbeentemporarilyalmostoverpoweringtoMr.Carrisfordinhisweakcondition.
"Uponmyword,"hesaidfaintlytoMr.Carmichael,whenitwassuggestedthatthelittlegirlshouldgointoanotherroom."IfeelasifIdonotwanttolosesightofher."
"Iwilltakecareofher,"Janetsaid,"andmammawillcomeinafewminutes."AnditwasJanetwholedheraway.
"We’resogladyouarefound,"shesaid."Youdon’tknowhowgladwearethatyouarefound."
Donaldstoodwithhishandsinhispockets,andgazedatSarawithreflectingandself-reproachfuleyes.
"IfI’djustaskedwhatyournamewaswhenIgaveyoumysixpence,"hesaid,"youwouldhavetoldmeitwasSaraCrewe,andthenyouwouldhavebeenfoundinaminute."ThenMrs.Carmichaelcamein.Shelookedverymuchmoved,andsuddenlytookSarainherarmsandkissedher.
"Youlookbewildered,poorchild,"shesaid."Anditisnottobewonderedat."
Saracouldonlythinkofonething.
"Washe,"shesaid,withaglancetowardthecloseddoorofthelibrary—"wasHEthewickedfriend?Oh,dotellme!"
Mrs.Carmichaelwascryingasshekissedheragain.Shefeltasifsheoughttobekissedveryoftenbecauseshehadnotbeenkissedforsolong.
"Hewasnotwicked,mydear,"sheanswered.