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The Egotist Becomes a Personage
Themysticalreveriesofsaintsthathadoncefilledhimwithaweinthestillhoursofnight,nowvaguelyrepelledhim.TheByronsandBrookeswhohaddefiedlifefrommountaintopswereintheendbutflaneursandposeurs,atbestmistakingtheshadowofcourageforthesubstanceofwisdom.Thepageantryofhisdisillusiontookshapeinaworld-oldprocessionofProphets,Athenians,Martyrs,Saints,Scientists,DonJuans,Jesuits,Puritans,Fausts,Poets,Pacifists;likecostumedalumniatacollegereuniontheystreamedbeforehimastheirdreams,personalities,andcreedshadinturnthrowncoloredlightsonhissoul;eachhadtriedtoexpressthegloryoflifeandthetremendoussignificanceofman;eachhadboastedofsynchronizingwhathadgonebeforeintohisownricketygeneralities;eachhaddependedafterallonthesetstageandtheconventionofthetheatre,whichisthatmaninhishungerforfaithwillfeedhismindwiththenearestandmostconvenientfood.
Women—ofwhomhehadexpectedsomuch;whosebeautyhehadhopedtotransmuteintomodesofart;whoseunfathomableinstincts,marvellouslyincoherentandinarticulate,hehadthoughttoperpetuateintermsofexperience—hadbecomemerelyconsecrationstotheirownposterity.Isabelle,Clara,Rosalind,Eleanor,wereallremovedbytheirverybeauty,aroundwhichmenhadswarmed,fromthepossibilityofcontributinganythingbutasickheartandapageofpuzzledwordstowrite.
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