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Chapter 4
Tomortifyhishearingheexertednocontroloverhisvoicewhichwasthenbreaking,neithersangnorwhistled,andmadenoattempttofleefromnoiseswhichcausedhimpainfulnervousirritationsuchasthesharpeningofknivesontheknifeboard,thegatheringofcindersonthefire-shovelandthetwiggingofthecarpet.Tomortifyhissmellwasmoredifficultashefoundinhimselfnoinstinctiverepugnancetobadodourswhethertheyweretheodoursoftheoutdoorworld,suchasthoseofdungortar,ortheodoursofhisownpersonamongwhichhehadmademanycuriouscomparisonsandexperiments.Hefoundintheendthattheonlyodouragainstwhichhissenseofsmellrevoltedwasacertainstalefishystinklikethatoflong-standingurine;andwheneveritwaspossiblehesubjectedhimselftothisunpleasantodour.Tomortifythetastehepractisedstricthabitsattable,observedtotheletterallthefastsofthechurchandsoughtbydistractiontodiverthismindfromthesavoursofdifferentfoods.Butitwastothemortificationoftouchhebroughtthemostassiduousingenuityofinventiveness.Heneverconsciouslychangedhispositioninbed,satinthemostuncomfortablepositions,sufferedpatientlyeveryitchandpain,keptawayfromthefire,remainedonhiskneesallthroughthemassexceptatthegospels,leftpartofhisneckandfaceundriedsothatairmightstingthemand,wheneverhewasnotsayinghisbeads,carriedhisarmsstifflyathissideslikearunnerandneverinhispocketsorclaspedbehindhim.
