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XV. The Beginning of Vacation
Yourkindnesswonhisloveaftertheideathata‘girlwasnogood’wasrootedoutofhisstubbornmind.”
“Hemayhavedeservedit,butthatisnotthepoint.IfIhadcalmlyanddeliberatelydecidedtowhiphimbecauseIthoughtitajustpunishmentforhimIwouldnotfeeloveritasIdo.Butthetruthis,Mrs.Allan,thatIjustflewintoatemperandwhippedhimbecauseofthat.Iwasn’tthinkingwhetheritwasjustorunjust...evenifhehadn’tdeserveditI’dhavedoneitjustthesame.Thatiswhathumiliatesme.”
“Well,weallmakemistakes,dear,sojustputitbehindyou.Weshouldregretourmistakesandlearnfromthem,butnevercarrythemforwardintothefuturewithus.TheregoesGilbertBlytheonhiswheel...homeforhisvacationtoo,Isuppose.Howareyouandhegettingonwithyourstudies?”
“Prettywell.WeplantofinishtheVirgiltonight...thereareonlytwentylinestodo.ThenwearenotgoingtostudyanymoreuntilSeptember.”
“Doyouthinkyouwillevergettocollege?”
“Oh,Idon’tknow.”Annelookeddreamilyafartotheopal-tintedhorizon.“Marilla’seyeswillneverbemuchbetterthantheyarenow,althoughwearesothankfultothinkthattheywillnotgetworse.Andthentherearethetwins...somehowIdon’tbelievetheirunclewilleverreallysendforthem.Perhapscollegemaybearoundthebendintheroad,butIhaven’tgottothebendyetandIdon’tthinkmuchaboutitlestImightgrowdiscontented.”
“Well,Ishouldliketoseeyougotocollege,Anne;butifyouneverdo,don’tbediscontentedaboutit.