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           Theeffectisproducedmorerapidlynow,andthesubjectivevisionsarelessmarked.Ikeepfullnotesofeachsitting.Wilsonisleavingfortownforaweekortendays,butweshallnotinterrupttheexperiments,whichdependfortheirvalueasmuchuponmysensationsasonhisobservations.April4.Imustbecarefullyonmyguard.AcomplicationhascreptintoourexperimentswhichIhadnotreckonedupon.InmyeagernessforscientificfactsIhavebeenfoolishlyblindtothehumanrelationsbetweenMissPenclosaandmyself.IcanwriteherewhatIwouldnotbreathetoalivingsoul.Theunhappywomanappearstohaveformedanattachmentforme.Ishouldnotsaysuchathing,evenintheprivacyofmyownintimatejournal,ifithadnotcometosuchapassthatitisimpossibletoignoreit.Forsometime,—thatis,forthelastweek,—therehavebeensignswhichIhavebrushedasideandrefusedtothinkof.HerbrightnesswhenIcome,herdejectionwhenIgo,hereagernessthatIshouldcomeoften,theexpressionofhereyes,thetoneofhervoice—Itriedtothinkthattheymeantnothing,andwere,perhaps,onlyherardentWestIndianmanner.Butlastnight,asIawokefromthemesmericsleep,Iputoutmyhand,unconsciously,involuntarily,andclaspedhers.WhenIcamefullytomyself,weweresittingwiththemlocked,shelookingupatmewithanexpectantsmile.AndthehorriblethingwasthatIfeltimpelledtosaywhatsheexpectedmetosay.

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