Young Irony
ForyearsafterwardwhenAmorythoughtofEleanorheseemedstilltohearthewindsobbingaroundhimandsendinglittlechillsintotheplacesbesidehisheart.Thenightwhentheyrodeuptheslopeandwatchedthecoldmoonfloatthroughtheclouds,helostafurtherpartofhimthatnothingcouldrestore;andwhenhelostithelostalsothepowerofregrettingit.Eleanorwas,say,thelasttimethatevilcreptclosetoAmoryunderthemaskofbeauty,thelastweirdmysterythatheldhimwithwildfascinationandpoundedhissoultoflakes.
Withherhisimaginationranriotandthatiswhytheyrodetothehighesthillandwatchedanevilmoonridehigh,fortheyknewthenthattheycouldseethedevilineachother.ButEleanor—didAmorydreamher?Afterwardtheirghostsplayed,yetbothofthemhopedfromtheirsoulsnevertomeet.Wasittheinfinitesadnessofhereyesthatdrewhimorthemirrorofhimselfthathefoundinthegorgeousclarityofhermind?ShewillhavenootheradventurelikeAmory,andifshereadsthisshewillsay:
"AndAmorywillhavenootheradventurelikeme."
Norwillshesigh,anymorethanhewouldsigh.
Eleanortriedtoputitonpaperonce:
"Thefadingthingsweonlyknow
We’llhaveforgotten...
Putaway...
Desiresthatmeltedwiththesnow,
Anddreamsbegotten
Thisto-day:
Thesuddendawnswelaughedtogreet,
Thatallcouldsee,thatnonecouldshare,
Willbebutdawns...andifwemeet
Weshallnotcare.
Dear...notonetearwillriseforthis...