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Amory, Son of Beatrice
Hehadrealizedthathisbestinterestswereboundupwiththoseofacertainvariant,changingperson,whoselabel,inorderthathispastmightalwaysbeidentifiedwithhim,wasAmoryBlaine.Amorymarkedhimselfafortunateyouth,capableofinfiniteexpansionforgoodorevil.Hedidnotconsiderhimselfa"strongchar’c’ter,"butreliedonhisfacility(learnthingssortaquick)andhissuperiormentality(readalottadeepbooks).Hewasproudofthefactthathecouldneverbecomeamechanicalorscientificgenius.Fromnootherheightswashedebarred.
Physically.—Amorythoughtthathewasexceedinglyhandsome.Hewas.Hefanciedhimselfanathleteofpossibilitiesandasuppledancer.
Socially.—Herehisconditionwas,perhaps,mostdangerous.Hegrantedhimselfpersonality,charm,magnetism,poise,thepowerofdominatingallcontemporarymales,thegiftoffascinatingallwomen.
Mentally.—Complete,unquestionedsuperiority.
Nowaconfessionwillhavetobemade.AmoryhadratheraPuritanconscience.Notthatheyieldedtoit—laterinlifehealmostcompletelyslewit—butatfifteenitmadehimconsiderhimselfagreatdealworsethanotherboys...unscrupulousness...thedesiretoinfluencepeopleinalmosteveryway,evenforevil...acertaincoldnessandlackofaffection,amountingsometimestocruelty...ashiftingsenseofhonor...anunholyselfishness...apuzzled,furtiveinterestineverythingconcerningsex.
Therewas,also,acuriousstrainofweaknessrunningcrosswisethroughhismake-up...