Грозовий перевал
Chapter 17
ButItellyouhewouldn’tletme!Doyouthinkhecouldbeartoseemegrowfatandmerry—couldbeartothinkthatweweretranquil,andnotresolveonpoisoningourcomfort?Now,Ihavethesatisfactionofbeingsurethathedetestsme,tothepointofitsannoyinghimseriouslytohavemewithinearshotoreye-sight:Inotice,whenIenterhispresence,themusclesofhiscountenanceareinvoluntarilydistortedintoanexpressionofhatred;partlyarisingfromhisknowledgeofthegoodcausesIhavetofeelthatsentimentforhim,andpartlyfromoriginalaversion.ItisstrongenoughtomakemefeelprettycertainthathewouldnotchasemeoverEngland,supposingIcontrivedaclearescape;andthereforeImustgetquiteaway.I’verecoveredfrommyfirstdesiretobekilledbyhim:I’dratherhe’dkillhimself!Hehasextinguishedmyloveeffectually,andsoI’matmyease.IcanrecollectyethowIlovedhim;andcandimlyimaginethatIcouldstillbelovinghim,if—no,no!Evenifhehaddotedonme,thedevilishnaturewouldhaverevealeditsexistencesomehow.Catherinehadanawfullypervertedtastetoesteemhimsodearly,knowinghimsowell,Monster!wouldthathecouldbeblottedoutofcreation,andoutofmymemory!"
"Hush,hush!He’sahumanbeing,"Isaid."Bemorecharitable:thereareworsementhanheisyet!"
"He’snotahumanbeing,"sheretorted;"andhehasnoclaimonmycharity.Igavehimmyheart,andhetookandpinchedittodeath,andflungitbacktome.
