Дванадцять років рабства
Chapter 4
Hewasleavingthefriendsandassociationsofhisyouth—everythingthatwasdearandprecioustohisheart—inallprobabilitynevertoreturn. HeandElizamingledtheirtearstogether,bemoaningtheircruelfate. Formyownpart,difficultasitwas,Iendeavoredtokeepupmyspirits. Iresolvedinmymindahundredplansofescape,andfullydeterminedtomaketheattemptthefirstdesperatechancethatoffered. Ihadbythistimebecomesatisfied,however,thatmytruepolicywastosaynothingfurtheronthesubjectofmyhavingbeenbornafreeman. Itwouldbutexposemetomal-treatment,anddiminishthechancesofliberation.
Aftersunriseinthemorningwewerecalledupondecktobreakfast. Burchtookourhand-cuffsoff,andwesatdowntotable. HeaskedElizaifshewouldtakeadram. Shedeclined,thankinghimpolitely. Duringthemealwewereallsilent—notawordpassedbetweenus. Amulattowomanwhoservedattableseemedtotakeaninterestinourbehalf—toldustocheerup,andnottobesocastdown. Breakfastover,thehand-cuffswererestored,andBurchorderedusoutonthesterndeck. Wesatdowntogetheronsomeboxes,stillsayingnothinginBurch’spresence. Occasionallyapassengerwouldwalkouttowherewewere,lookatusforawhile,thensilentlyreturn.
Itwasaverypleasantmorning. Thefieldsalongtheriverwerecoveredwithverdure,farinadvanceofwhatIhadbeenaccustomedtoseeatthatseasonoftheyear. Thesunshoneoutwarmly;thebirdsweresinginginthetrees. Thehappybirds—Ienviedthem. Iwishedforwingslikethem,thatImightcleavetheairtowheremybirdlingswaitedvainlyfortheirfather’scoming,inthecoolerregionoftheNorth.