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Chapter 7
Shewaspractical,andheseemedtohertobeanabsurdspendthriftofthesequalitieswhichmadehimsovaluable.Hegottoolittleforthem.Hescatteredthemwithbothhandsamongsttoomanypeople,shethought.Helaidnomoneyby.Sherailedathispoverty,hisexploits,hisadventures,hislovesandhisreputation;butinherheartshehadnevergivenhimup,asthough,indeed,hehadbeenherson.
Evennow,illasshewas,illenoughtofeelthechill,blackbreathoftheapproachingend,shehadwishedtoseehim.Itwaslikeputtingoutherbenumbedhandtoregainherhold.Butshehadpresumedtoomuchonherstrength.Shecouldnotcommandherthoughts;theyhadbecomedim,likehervision.Thewordsfalteredonherlips,andonlytheparamountanxietyanddesireofherlifeseemedtobetoostrongfordeath.
TheCapatazsaid,“Ihaveheardthesethingsmanytimes.Youareunjust,butitdoesnothurtme.Onlynowyoudonotseemtohavemuchstrengthtotalk,andIhavebutlittletimetolisten.Iamengagedinaworkofverygreatmoment.”
Shemadeanefforttoaskhimwhetheritwastruethathehadfoundtimetogoandfetchadoctorforher.Nostromonoddedaffirmatively.
Shewaspleased:itrelievedhersufferingstoknowthatthemanhadcondescendedtodosomuchforthosewhoreallywantedhishelp.Itwasaproofofhisfriendship.Hervoicebecomestronger.
“Iwantapriestmorethanadoctor,”shesaid,pathetically.