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Chapter 7
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“Mydeargirl,thereisthatinAntoniawhichwouldmakemebelieveinthefeasibilityofanything.Onelookatherfaceisenoughtosetmybrainonfire.AndyetIloveherasanyothermanwould—withtheheart,andwiththatalone.SheismoretomethanhisChurchtoFatherCorbelan(theGrandVicardisappearedlastnightfromthetown;perhapsgonetojointhebandofHernandez).SheismoretomethanhispreciousminetothatsentimentalEnglishman.Iwon’tspeakofhiswife.Shemayhavebeensentimentalonce.TheSanTomeminestandsnowbetweenthosetwopeople.‘Yourfatherhimself,Antonia,’Irepeated;‘yourfather,doyouunderstand?hastoldmetogoon.’
“Sheavertedherface,andinapainedvoice—
“‘Hehas?’shecried.‘Then,indeed,Ifearhewillneverspeakagain.’
“Shefreedherwristsfrommyclutchandbegantocryinherhandkerchief.Idisregardedhersorrow;Iwouldratherseehermiserablethannotseeheratall,neveranymore;forwhetherIescapedorstayedtodie,therewasforusnocomingtogether,nofuture.Andthatbeingso,Ihadnopitytowasteuponthepassingmomentsofhersorrow.IsentheroffintearstofetchDonaEmiliaandDonCarlos,too.Theirsentimentwasnecessarytotheverylifeofmyplan;thesentimentalismofthepeoplethatwillneverdoanythingforthesakeoftheirpassionatedesire,unlessitcomestothemclothedinthefairrobesofanidea.