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Chapter 5
Imusthavelookedlikeafellowthrowingahandfulofpeasintotheair.Peoplebegantolookatus.Sheshookhandsamomentafterand,ingoingaway,saidshehopedIwoulddowhatIsaid.
NowIcallthatfriendly,don’tyou?
Yes,Ilikedhertoday.Alittleormuch?Don’tknow.Ilikedheranditseemsanewfeelingtome.Then,inthatcase,alltherest,allthatIthoughtIthoughtandallthatIfeltIfelt,alltherestbeforenow,infact.O,giveitup,oldchap!Sleepitoff!
APRIL16.Away!Away!
Thespellofarmsandvoices:thewhitearmsofroads,theirpromiseofcloseembracesandtheblackarmsoftallshipsthatstandagainstthemoon,theirtaleofdistantnations.Theyareheldouttosay:Wearealone—come.Andthevoicessaywiththem:Weareyourkinsmen.Andtheairisthickwiththeircompanyastheycalltome,theirkinsman,makingreadytogo,shakingthewingsoftheirexultantandterribleyouth.
APRIL26.Motherisputtingmynewsecondhandclothesinorder.Shepraysnow,shesays,thatImaylearninmyownlifeandawayfromhomeandfriendswhattheheartisandwhatitfeels.Amen.Sobeit.Welcome,Olife,Igotoencounterforthemillionthtimetherealityofexperienceandtoforgeinthesmithyofmysoultheuncreatedconscienceofmyrace.
APRIL27.Oldfather,oldartificer,standmenowandeveringoodstead.
Dublin,1904Trieste,1914
byJamesJoyce