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Chapter 5
HeshoveditbackandintheshadowofthetreesStephensawhispaleface,framedbythedark,andhislargedarkeyes.Yes.Hisfacewashandsomeandhisbodywasstrongandhard.Hehadspokenofamother’slove.Hefeltthenthesufferingsofwomen,theweaknessesoftheirbodiesandsouls;andwouldshieldthemwithastrongandresolutearmandbowhismindtothem.
Awaythen:itistimetogo.AvoicespokesoftlytoStephen’slonelyheart,biddinghimgoandtellinghimthathisfriendshipwascomingtoanend.Yes;hewouldgo.Hecouldnotstriveagainstanother.Heknewhispart.
—ProbablyIshallgoaway,hesaid.
—Where?Cranlyasked.
—WhereIcan,Stephensaid.
—Yes,Cranlysaid.Itmightbedifficultforyoutoliveherenow.Butisitthatmakesyougo?
—Ihavetogo,Stephenanswered.
—Because,Cranlycontinued,youneednotlookuponyourselfasdrivenawayifyoudonotwishtogoorasahereticoranoutlaw.Therearemanygoodbelieverswhothinkasyoudo.Wouldthatsurpriseyou?Thechurchisnotthestonebuildingnoreventheclergyandtheirdogmas.Itisthewholemassofthosebornintoit.Idon’tknowwhatyouwishtodoinlife.IsitwhatyoutoldmethenightwewerestandingoutsideHarcourtStreetstation?
—Yes,Stephensaid,smilinginspiteofhimselfatCranly’swayofrememberingthoughtsinconnexionwithplaces.