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Chapter 3
Thatwastheworkofdevils,toscatterhisthoughtsandover-cloudhisconscience,assailinghimatthegatesofthecowardlyandsin-corruptedflesh:and,prayingGodtimidlytoforgivehimhisweakness,hecrawledupontothebedand,wrappingtheblanketscloselyabouthim,coveredhisfaceagainwithhishands.Hehadsinned.HehadsinnedsodeeplyagainstheavenandbeforeGodthathewasnotworthytobecalledGod’schild.
Coulditbethathe,StephenDedalus,haddonethosethings?Hisconsciencesighedinanswer.Yes,hehaddonethem,secretly,filthily,timeaftertime,and,hardenedinsinfulimpenitence,hehaddaredtowearthemaskofholinessbeforethetabernacleitselfwhilehissoulwithinwasalivingmassofcorruption.HowcameitthatGodhadnotstruckhimdead?Theleprouscompanyofhissinsclosedabouthim,breathinguponhim,bendingoverhimfromallsides.Hestrovetoforgettheminanactofprayer,huddlinghislimbsclosertogetherandbindingdownhiseyelids:butthesensesofhissoulwouldnotbeboundand,thoughhiseyeswereshutfast,hesawtheplaceswherehehadsinnedand,thoughhisearsweretightlycovered,heheard.Hedesiredwithallhiswillnottohearorsee.Hedesiredtillhisframeshookunderthestrainofhisdesireanduntilthesensesofhissoulclosed.Theyclosedforaninstantandthenopened.Hesaw.
Afieldofstiffweedsandthistlesandtuftednettle-bunches.