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Chapter 2
Fromanotherwindowopentotheaircamethesoundofapiano,scaleafterscalerisingintothetreble.
Stephenwalkedonathisfather’sside,listeningtostorieshehadheardbefore,hearingagainthenamesofthescatteredanddeadrevellerswhohadbeenthecompanionsofhisfather’syouth.Andafaintsicknesssighedinhisheart.
HerecalledhisownequivocalpositioninBelvedere,afreeboy,aleaderafraidofhisownauthority,proudandsensitiveandsuspicious,battlingagainstthesqualorofhislifeandagainsttheriotofhismind.Theletterscutinthestainedwoodofthedeskstareduponhim,mockinghisbodilyweaknessandfutileenthusiasmsandmakinghimloathehimselfforhisownmadandfilthyorgies.Thespittleinhisthroatgrewbitterandfoultoswallowandthefaintsicknessclimbedtohisbrainsothatforamomentheclosedhiseyesandwalkedonindarkness.
Hecouldstillhearhisfather’svoice—
—Whenyoukickoutforyourself,Stephen—asIdaresayyouwilloneofthesedays—remember,whateveryoudo,tomixwithgentlemen.WhenIwasayoungfellowItellyouIenjoyedmyself.Imixedwithfinedecentfellows.Everyoneofuscouldlosomething.Onefellowhadagoodvoice,anotherfellowwasagoodactor,anothercouldsingagoodcomicsong,anotherwasagoodoarsmanoragoodracketplayer,anothercouldtellagoodstoryandsoon.