Желтые обои

           Iamsittingbythewindownow,upinthisatrociousnursery,andthereisnothingtohindermywritingasmuchasIplease,savelackofstrength. 

           Johnisawayallday,andevensomenightswhenhiscasesareserious. 

           Iamgladmycaseisnotserious! 

           Butthesenervoustroublesaredreadfullydepressing. 

           JohndoesnotknowhowmuchIreallysuffer. HeknowsthereisnoREASONtosuffer,andthatsatisfieshim. 

           Ofcourseitisonlynervousness. Itdoesweighonmesonottodomydutyinanyway! 

           ImeanttobesuchahelptoJohn,sucharealrestandcomfort,andhereIamacomparativeburdenalready! 

           NobodywouldbelievewhataneffortitistodowhatlittleIamable—todressandentertain,andotherthings. 

           ItisfortunateMaryissogoodwiththebaby. Suchadearbaby! 

           AndyetICANNOTbewithhim,itmakesmesonervous. 

           IsupposeJohnneverwasnervousinhislife. Helaughsatmesoaboutthiswall-paper! 

           Atfirsthemeanttorepapertheroom,butafterwardshesaidthatIwaslettingitgetthebetterofme,andthatnothingwasworseforanervouspatientthantogivewaytosuchfancies.